+things that the heart doesnt says+

What a way to spent the last 2 days of the yr- recovering from a severe FOOD poisioning!!

Vomitted non stop since sunday eveniing to the wee hrs, followed by a churning stomache and turn my legs jelly. Visit the emergency department, got some med that gave me some respite.

So, I left with time for myself again!!

The last days of the year often stir in me many nostalgy and provoking thoughts. I like to recount my my experiences and see them in different angles. sometimes, I realise another side of myself in those playback sessions.

For instance, when one feels angry and vexed at something that goes wrong and not done according to his will or style, we can further examined and inferred him as a perfectionist or label him as a short fused. However, let’s look at him a little deeper, perhaps his life story will entale his low esteem and we realised that he strives to be a perfectionist as he fears being put down by how others judge him.  He is actually very self conscious. Bottom line : ” thou shall not judge”. 

Thought of the things that made me angry, frustrated, vexed up. The issues that made me shed tears, lost sleep and worried. They all uncovered another side of me, that is en eye opener to myself . There are things that the heart is silence about. Things which it seldom says. 

i am probing my heart..

and I am surprise, it has been jealous.